Hello there (: My name is Nicole and obviously, this is my domain. It contains probably 87% of my thoughts that I can't post on any other social networking accounts that I have. I decided to seclude this place from the people around me. Feel free to navigate, look around, leave a message, and stay smiling hun ;)
Valentines? What Valentines?
Monday, February 14, 2011 
6:03 AM ♥
Happy
Today wasn't what I anticipated but nearly expected
. I didn't prepared for this event so I don't have money to spend 
. I crammed and beg my knees just to have money and buy a letter to give this special someone of mine at school 
. If you don't know, I'm crushing on a younger guy 
(but doesn't look like he's younger than me
) guy in my school 
. Today's the last day of our exams also, so in my free time 
I wrote in the letter and sealed it nicely 
. Only my close friends knows about this love letter 
.This guy already has a girlfriend, and I know it. Still I'm willing to give this letter to him. There's nothing wrong in the letter. There's no "To my Boyfriend" or "Love" words on it. Just plain admittance and a stupid confession.
I waited in the cafeteria but I didn't saw him. I didn't finished my food because of loss of appetite. Then MJ told me this:
" Nicole kung ako sayo, wag mo nang ituloy yan. Mapapahiya ka lang, I swear. Kahit na as a friend yung laman niyang letter nayan, iba parin ang takbo ng utak ng babae sa lalake. Tapos baka awayin ka lang nung girlfriend nun. Kahit na ba masmatanda ka sa kanya, mahirap paring kalabanin ang isang old student. Ayaw ka lang naming masaktan. Kung gusto mo lapitan mo personally taz tanungin mo kung pwede makipag-kaibigan. Not like this (referring to the red envelope)."
Nicole if I were you, don't do it. You'll just get humiliated, I swear. Even if this is a friendly letter, a guys brain works differently from girls. Then his girlfriend may hurt you. Even though you're older than her, it's hard to have a war with an old student. We just don't want you to get hurt. If you want to be his friend, go ask him personally. Not like this (referring to the red envelope).
MJ's right. I am seriously insane and I don't know what I'm doing. It's equivalent to social suicide. I wasn't thinking right. I was just madly driven by this occasion since I don't have a boyfriend. MJ saved me from huge embarrassment, she's really a great friend. More likely my heroine. Dismissal at the cafeteria, he was just beside me and talking to 3 girls. Then guitars started to play around us . Seriously, I feel like those guitar music are meant for that moment.
The big question is..
What will happen to the red envelope?
Well, it will stay under a rock for the rest of my life. Kidding, but in literal reality, it will just stay in the deepest part of my cabinet, until I don't know. It's complicated and at the same time, dreadfully amusing. Seriously, I will just keep it. If 50 years have passed and I didn't end up giving it to him, I will just laugh at it. A time capsule of a stupid me when I was younger.
You, how's your Valentines?
◆ 3 Diamonds
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